12 March 2007
I feel so so exhausted, tired, stress, sleepy and feel like wanna cry becoz all for one reason Band.
Obviously, i felt that tiredness becoz of band but i can endure it, and I was so sleepy rite after band but nonetheless, i went online, WTH???.
Stress becoz my scores. I just couldn't get it rite. Sometimes I rush the tempo and Syafiqah will say "Hamizan, don't rush!" and sometimes I will be slower that the tempo and she shake her head saying wrong and then hitting her sticks. I felt damn stress every time I couldn't get it rite.
I feel like CRYING becoz number 1) I'm scared that I cannot go through with wad the rest of other percussionists are going through. The rest look so good just so perfect but I'm struggling just to get a crochet rite. I wanna cry but I don't show it to the rest. Alfred and XX are so good, matter of fact Alfred was the one teaching me The Magnificent Seven song.
I felt retarded and wanna cry my heart out coz I'm playing bass drum 2 which means I only hit my drum so seldom and yet I couldn't get it rite. Secondly, I almost fainted halfway when us the percussionist were standing under the scorching heat of hot sun. I mean I didn't have breakfast and I was so bloody weak....a band member commented that I was about to die or something.
Lastly I'm so so sorry to Nadiana for like playing with her blog all this while ever since last week. Please forgive me. If I did something wrong to god, god will forgive me BUT if I did something wrong to a person, ONLY that person can forgive me.
So, Nadiana, please okay. I'm really sorry! Sorry a hundred and million times. I know your not happy....i'm sorry.
And yeah Percussionist listen up, tomorrow there will be sectional breakfast at 7am at Teck Whye CC MacDonalds. Those who can come pls come okay...thanx.
TAG ME!!!
wads wrong with me today? I feel like I'm such a jerk...haiz...
posted @ 9:11 PM
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