28 March 2007
Lolx...today I seriously do not know wad is HAPPENING to me, my band and my LIFE.
Stoopid DNT related to IPW related to ART driving my "very extremely marvellous brain" into the never ending world of pathetic project work!
I'm so frustrated and just darn crazy lahz! My group mates don't wanna co-operate, the teacher like bloody demanding and behaving like paparazzi, always asking questions and so impatient.
Firstly, today I my schedule says that I have Crystal Growing Workshop, Band Practice & Podcasting project [ART].
My MIND was going hay-wakakakaka[crazy] because I am like the leader for Podcasting project which is related to ART.
So, I did not go for the podcast thing after Crystal Growing and went to band straight away.
I felt a bit worried and so bloody damn afraid and guilty plus loads and lots of stress.
The Crystal Growing ended at 4pm and I went band on time :)
The only crazy thing is the stoopid ART!!!
I mean is the teacher blind or something?
Everybody hates the stoopid project and he keeps on pushing US to do it. Yeah "US", my class. I mean there were like 5 more groups who have not completed the farking project. And he knows that we can't handle it...to him, it's so damn simple like counting 1 2 3.
Look teacher, if u are blind which I obviously think that you ARE....let me send you for an operation to OPEN your bloody blinded eyes that ART is never in OUR [Class 2A] lives at the first place. Pls just don't tell me that you are blinded my the stupidity of art. I mean can't we just do simple plain tradition way of drawing and colouring?
And I am so freaking stress!!!
Now wads on the list:
Band [which I will never blame coz got 2 shows round the corner & it's something I ENJOY]
Art plus IPW plus DnT [which is the most crazy thing that had ever happen in my life, hate!]
Enrichment courses [Headmaster, where's ur head??? Don't you see that you are putting too many courses at one go....I partially blame Public Speaking & Crystal Growing for NOT helping my life but making things even harder for me, sorry to say that]
I can handle this but I don't know whether in the near future I could.
I'm already partially suffering from stress & depression.
Always crying before I go for band [but never show to ppl].
Always thinking wad to do next.
Always thinking wad will ever happen next.
Always reminding myself that I got life to do.
Group members like heck-care their work.
Always arguing & fighting with my group mates.
My friends hate me.
She hates me & don't wanna talk to me :(
My band probably hates me coz of the incident.
And I'm trying my best to make things better.
Trying my best to manage myself.
Everytime I think about this, I just MUST MUST MUST put myself to work at once.
Pushing myself to the limit, in fact it has gone beyond until to the extent that I'm always stress and weeping away.
Argghhh!!! Sec 2 life is so sucking, I mean the projects & enrichment.
Probably I would most probably flung my test and end-of-year exams.
And my chances of going to express next year has changed to dust & dirt in the air.
I just HOPE that next year Sec 3, the only 2 things I have to focus on are only studies that are RELATED to the syllabus and not studying out of the box with projects and crap. AND my beloved band.
Next year SYF so I really want to focus and put myself to a state where not even the principal can stop me from going to band just because I didn't do one stoopid homework.
That'all.
At least today I completed the drawings for DNT.
And guess wad...I was so stress until I mistaken my toothpaste as my cleanser.
Plus when I was alighting the bus, I accidentally slap a person face...I mean my fingers were "moving" on the person cheeks. Slap as in a gentle one. The person stared at me and I didn't bother saying SORRY coz I was so busy thinking bout band and school.
TAG ME!!!
posted @ 10:13 PM
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